Walking alongside our children through their pain and into healing was unnatural for me. I truly thought that if we obeyed and followed hard after God to foster and adopt the children as he led our family would thrive and we would be spared some of the more challenging behaviors. I also thought that if I prayed hard enough and followed the medical and therapeutic plans during the first five years of his life, God would completely and miraculously heal my son's brain. I thought the same thing for our daughter's emotional challenges.
Almost 9 years and a completely "broken hallelujah" later, I stopped waiting for promises that were not Biblical and a miraculous healing that would not ever be. God's promises are true. He did not promise we would be problem free, nor did He promise we'd skip troublesome heart-breaking and faith-stretching challenges. Not because God cannot, but because He has confirmed that He is sufficient and so is His grace.
There has been healing, and a lot of it! Our son is mainstreamed in regular ed with special ed supports. He is far less aggressive towards me. He uses words more frequently than screams when he is upset. Our daughter chose Christ and her heart is far less stony. A child that once drew a picture of me in the oven crying as she stood outside the oven smiling now writes me love notes and gives the best hugs!
The healing that God has provided is miraculous and took place over many years. He has walked with us through our pain and healed us as we've walked alongside our children. Creating deep and healthy connections has required much more than I had to give. Thankful that He is immeasurably more and provider!
We are healing and God is faithful. He has healed my brokenness and is healing the hearts and minds of our children. Our family is thriving and that is a "healing hallelujah".
