I trust that every moment's in your hands
You're the God of my days
The King of my nights
Lord of my laughter
Sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise
The love of my life
You never leave me
You are faithful
God of my days
Words from the worship song this morning. Words, that echo truth and bring life. Thank you Pastor John Mark for bringing His words so aptly spoken.
Encouraging words, from a family at our church that I don't know (well, not yet;) sharing in video their adoptive journey and How God is so faithful.
My Prince and Savior, my God with plans of blessing and purpose for life.
His words so clear in this amazing family's adoptive journey. I hear His worship.
His joy that swells in my heart. Offering back my hands and cracking voice in worship, my words so short of the glory that He deserves.
You are faithful. God of my days and nights...and those of our son's.
LORD continue your words of life in song.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
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Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Jealous For
I've sung the Dave Crowder song, How He Loves countless times, and recently we've added it to family worship time. There have been some things that have made worship and rejoicing difficult. Last summer I studied Beth More's Psalms (with two of my precious sister-friends) and was incredibly blessed as well as saw again the concept of being jealous for and not jealous of. To my shame, there have been far too many times I've been jealous of someone or jealous to have something, but jealous for has been a harder life-lesson. To His glory, He has never stopped teaching and bringing about circumstances and opportunities to grow. Beth had several verses that helped explain the difference, but I need to go through something before my learning and life changing actually takes place.
Throughout Hudson's adoptive process there have been times where I understood how He has loved me and how He is jealous for me. Jealous for me to know Him more, to know that I know that I know the depth of His love and concern as well as passion for a true relationship with me.
Last night,Z, my son had a very difficult melt-down. It has been a while since he's had a reaction like that. Maybe it was the result of the week-long stream of people through our home repairing and assessing the water damage, or it was too stimulating at Pei Wei, or knowing his friend was moving was to much for him. The cause isn't that important, but how I manage my response is...better yet, if I allow God to manage my response or not.
When he is so upset and spitting, biting, flailing, throwing things, screaming or various combinations there of, in those moments, I am not alone. If I get out of God's way He fills me with His presence, love and peace. Joy is a bit harder, but He is bringing that kind of joy as I allow Him. The beauty in my brokenness.
Brian & I got Z settled and the girls playing while we took some time to decompress. It is a heavy burden that is my my shoulders when I try to understand Z or how his special needs manifest. Conversations we've had with the girls answering their questions about our handicapped license plate down to talks about brain damage. I do get discouraged and bogged down, because I am not able by myself...He Is!
On our knees, bowed on the wood floor Brian & I poured out our hearts to our Daddy God. Shaking from the adrenaline I asked for His peace to fill and presence. Still smelling the Chinese food that Z had spit onto my hair and face, the words "He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane I am a tree. Bending beneath....oh how He loves us oh.." His calm fills us and I grab my guitar and we sing The Crowder song, How He loves, and invite the girls to join us in a family worship. I am beginning to understand jealous for me as I am jealous for my children to know their Daddy God more and more.
He is jealous for me...and how He loves. Thank you:) My son is one of my best teachers:)
I love you Zackary.
Throughout Hudson's adoptive process there have been times where I understood how He has loved me and how He is jealous for me. Jealous for me to know Him more, to know that I know that I know the depth of His love and concern as well as passion for a true relationship with me.
Last night,Z, my son had a very difficult melt-down. It has been a while since he's had a reaction like that. Maybe it was the result of the week-long stream of people through our home repairing and assessing the water damage, or it was too stimulating at Pei Wei, or knowing his friend was moving was to much for him. The cause isn't that important, but how I manage my response is...better yet, if I allow God to manage my response or not.
When he is so upset and spitting, biting, flailing, throwing things, screaming or various combinations there of, in those moments, I am not alone. If I get out of God's way He fills me with His presence, love and peace. Joy is a bit harder, but He is bringing that kind of joy as I allow Him. The beauty in my brokenness.
Brian & I got Z settled and the girls playing while we took some time to decompress. It is a heavy burden that is my my shoulders when I try to understand Z or how his special needs manifest. Conversations we've had with the girls answering their questions about our handicapped license plate down to talks about brain damage. I do get discouraged and bogged down, because I am not able by myself...He Is!
On our knees, bowed on the wood floor Brian & I poured out our hearts to our Daddy God. Shaking from the adrenaline I asked for His peace to fill and presence. Still smelling the Chinese food that Z had spit onto my hair and face, the words "He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane I am a tree. Bending beneath....oh how He loves us oh.." His calm fills us and I grab my guitar and we sing The Crowder song, How He loves, and invite the girls to join us in a family worship. I am beginning to understand jealous for me as I am jealous for my children to know their Daddy God more and more.
He is jealous for me...and how He loves. Thank you:) My son is one of my best teachers:)
I love you Zackary.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Jehova Jireh, My Provider
I shouldn't be surprised because He is faithful, but yet I continue to marvel at how God provides for us in so many different ways. Got word today that we received approval for a grant as well as a zero-interest loan from Lifesong for Orphans. Praise God! Lifesong does great work for orphans, by the way. They help make adoptions possible here, and also are ministering to orphans all around the world such as through our friends in Zambia, the McBride family.
Also, HUGE shout out to Embrace for their generous gift. Embrace is an incredible ministry to children and their families. Thank you Embrace!!
How he loves and provides for us...all!
Also, HUGE shout out to Embrace for their generous gift. Embrace is an incredible ministry to children and their families. Thank you Embrace!!
How he loves and provides for us...all!
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